Dreaming Always Ends.

I want to let everyone know about the guy that shows up when I close my eyes at night. My dream guy is tall. Tall enough that when I stand next to him I feel like I am small. He is the guy who drives to me because he would rather drive than have me spend money on gas. He grabs my chin when he kisses me and while our lips are still touching he tells me he loves me. I want someone who will give up playing Call of Duty just to sit and talk with me. I want a guy that asks questions. Get to know who I am. Inside and out. I have plenty of secrets that I want to share with that special someone. I want a guy who likes all the weird things about me. One who likes that I would choose a t shirt and sweats over a skirt anyday of the week. I want to be able to be myself and know it's what he still wants. More than anything I want someone that will accept my past. It hasnt been the best and I don't want to hide it. It was my life and I want him to accept me completely. I hope that someday I find this man and I can devote my entire life to loving him. We will see : ] Keep your fingers crossed!
--Alex Michelle

Catch Up Game.

Welcome back everyone. Well these last couple weeks have been so crazy. seriously. Well I am writing Elder Travis Thomas and to me he sounds like we are back together but then to everyone else that he writes I am annoying him? Yes, that pisses me off. To prove to him that he really does love me I am not going to reply to his letter for two weeks. He can suck on that. I am not mad just upset that he think he can do that to me when in reality he cant. Oh well. I still love him. K now for my life here. haha. I have a crush on this kid. his name is Justin. He is very cool. But, nothing like anyone I have every dated. Which I think is one of the reasons that he is the person I am crushing on. so he is cute. maybe I will get a picture and put it up here because that would be romantic. P.s. He is so cute. I asked him what his dream date was and he said to go dancing on a bridge. so I say, lets do it. And now it is all planned out! we are even going to dress up in fancy clothes like cinderella. I already know what I am going to wear! My prom dress that I wore my junior year. I am so excited. This kid is very scared of dating though and says that his biggest fear is commitment. So who knows what will happen but dont worry I will keep you updated! Well I should be getting a letter from Trav on saturday... and we will see what that says. I sent him a valentines package and almost feel dumb for it after reading what he emailed to his best friend Devon. I dont know what to do about that situation. Well I am getting tired and not enoying typing anymore. Love you. Goodnight

Change of heart.

Well everyone. All boys are dumb haha yay! Pretty sure every girl out there already knows that! Well about this Coby kid.. He was cute. Really cute and then he started talking to my best friend everyday. Obviously my best friend told me about it because it bugged her and she knew it wasn't okay with me. I tried talking to him about it and let him
Know that was not okay. Then he tells my friend and makes it sound like it's her fault. Wait what? Exactly. Then he doesn't even have the balls to say sorry. Gotta love boys. Well that will teach me to never date a kid in high school again! Oh well at least I didn't waste too much time on him! Gotta keep looking because mr right is out there! And the only thing that gets me through all the mr wrongs is knowing one day I'll find my eternal companion :)k bye!

Well Folks, this here is my man Coby : ] I realize that you can barely see him but you can still just imagine! I look like a freak in this picture but its the only one of us that I have so I went for it and put it on up here! Well sadly today I didnt even get to see him! SAD DAY! But its okay because we still talked! And we are currently talking on the phone! He is such a sweetheart! We went on a date last night, to the Blue Lemon. Cutest thing ever! Then we went and looked at cats at petsmart and then we played Skip-Bo, which he kicked my butt in! But we just had a fun night and it made me real happy! Well sorry that there is nothing about this amazing boy from today but he sure is cute and everyone who is reading this better not forget it. mmmk bye.

Mmm Mr. Coby Tyler Cameron!

K so.. I like this kid a lot! He just left my house and I already wanna come and write fifteen pages about how amazing he is and how happy he makes me! He first took me to get cupcakes at my favorite place which was so sweet :) then we went back to my house and played a little Mario kart and he is getting better :) he is Soo cute!!! Then we watched the movie the town, this is where the story gets real cute!! He was just cuddling with me the whole movie and i seriously never wanted him to let go! I currently have ugly cold sores and so we couldn't kiss on the lips because he might get them :( so he would kiss me on the cheek and my neck and my forehead :) everywhere cute! It made it extremely hard not to kiss him right on his cute lips!! But seriously I am amazed at how happy this boy makes me! I can't help but smile everytime he pops into my head! Which is often! :) but I love it! He just does everything right! I can't remember a time when I wanted to spend every night with the same person and we could even do nothing and still have so much fun! Mmm look forward to a lot more posts about Coby because I'm hoping he sticks around for a while!! :)

New Guy?

Well. Never thought this would happen but I have a new crush that is super cute and not Travis. I am super happy about it though! New guy is cute and has like 20 dates planned already and I think it's so cute :) he tells me all the time how cute he thinks I am and kisses me all the time! He is always nice and seriously gives me butterflies which hasn't happened in an extremely long amount of time. Bad part? He is still in high school... But I feel like he is mature and it's not really that big of a deal! And most definitely not big enough to be a deal breaker! I'm not saying I love this kid or see myself marrying him but I am happy to kind of move on and find someone new who makes me really happy! We will see what happens with new guy :) wish me luck!!

First Blog Post!

Well, You already know my name and that I like to dress up like an indian so here are some other cool qualities about myself.
--I love the movie Avatar. Not the dumb one with the air benders but the cool one with the blue people. I want to be one and hope to achieve that far reaching goal one day.
--I have this guy. And he is on a mission. We dated for a long time and now I am writing him to see where things go. So far he has been out for two months and one day. Sad that I know that? Oh well. He has written me only twice because we got in a huge fight before he left. Dont worry you will hear all about it.
--I am very insecure. I wish that I could change many things about myself. Looking in a mirror does nothing but make me sad because I am so far from the person that I want to be in so many ways. But I am working on that so I feel like that deserves some points.
--I am a worker. Not like a little guy who says he is a worker, I am a real one. I work about 40 hours a week to help provide for the costs of a young adult. You know the important stuff, cell phone, gas, and clothes. I love where I work and love everyone that I work with also!
--I am forever changing my hair color. Back to being insecure I think that when I change my hair color I get to almost be another version of myself and I like that idea so much that my poor hair gets dyed all the time.
--I have an Iphone. And Yes, I love it.
--I am a Miami Dolphins fan and will be forever! Let's be honest I cant name every player on the team but ever since Ricky Williams and his dreds played for them and was the best running back in the league I have been in love with them! And let me remind you all out there that they are the only team to have a fully undefeated season. So, suck it.
--I have two best friends and I love them will all my heart. Wanna know their names? Okay. Amanda and Lachelle. I love having these two people in my life because I can always talk to them and we all seem to be the opposite person yet somehow always get along and have so much fun together!
--I am technically an only child. Although I currently have two step sisters. Oh and a half brother that lives with his dad. But in all honesty the only one from my mom and pops was lil ole me : ]
--That seems to be enough for now and as we go you will learn more!